The Big Question

Hi there, well I have a question beating me up inside. To join back at Weight Watchers or not.
I am getting all of the mail, emails, etc saying Join up now,etc, I have done weight watchers in the past and this is basically what I base my weight loss on. The whole points system, (although I do it very slackly). My heart is saying join back, get some new literature, and new motivation. But my wallet is saying don't, you can't afford it, you can do it on your own. I just don't know. I basically did it on my own last year, and really for the whole year these are my results.

I weighed in on new years day at 100kg exactly. throughout the year I lost a total of 11kgs. Now I must say that I didn't go hard or anything. So really I feel that the results are not so good. I started walking, then I would stop, I started eating better, then I would go back to my old ways. The truth is, I know HOW to loose weight, I just lack the motivation. But I am not un motivated. Everytime I go shopping and try on clothes (which is very rare, I just get too depressed) I say to myself, thats it, I have got to work at it, and fit into a size 16 at least!!! But then nothing happens.

There is always something, like I was going to start a fresh In the new year, but then I get sick and in bed for three days, so it just hasn't happened!!
So anyway, I still don't know about joining, any advise from somebody would be great.

Right well, I have poured my heart out today, and have been a bit negative, but hey, I have to be honest.

See ya